Hello everyone, I realize that you probably haven’t received an email from this account in quite some time, in fact, it has been just over 1 year. The truth is I created this blog to articulate some of the incredibly difficult times I was experiencing because of my heart condition, and since then my heart condition has become more manageable and thus my writing has stopped.
I’m writing you today to let you know that I am going to be making an effort to post on here more regularly. The posts will likely consist of a link to my new Youtube channel where I am publishing videos from my life now that my condition has calmed down somewhat. In addition to this, I am hoping for some participation from you.
I have spent the last 2 years running around like a baby goat that got free from its pen because my body is permitting me. However, I have noticed that my attention to my health has definitely gone down as well. My regimented exercise routine has become less regimented, my 8 months off drinking ended a long time ago, and in general it seems that I’ve gone back to the unaware life of a normal guy. The problem is I miss the discourse around the heart condition. I loved being able to dig into my problems and scrutinize why things happened and why they affected me in that way, then even more so, the response that I got from all of you. It seems like a part of myself that I just stopped exploring as soon as it no longer became a life altering obstacle. I stopped because to share my (now) slight medical inconveniences (in comparison to some) felt cheap and contrived.
So I am wondering if you would be interested to follow my journey on this page without the strong focus on my medical condition? I loved the dialogue that was created in this space and I want to continue it, but what would you like to see? I don’t want to revive the anxiety of the past and make drama where there is none but it feels strange to walk away from this part of myself when it is still a very active part of my daily life. Is there something you would like to discuss? Let’s talk about it?
So with this rather sudden change, I will share with you some of my most recent videos from my youtube channel. They’re light and silly, those parts of myself I have been so happy to re-connect with over the last couple years but I guess tonight (after a long weekend of drinking and not sleeping) I felt the need to get back in touch with the thing that made me who I am today.
Thanks for listening, and I look forward to hearing from you.